Fake Fine

27
27歲
Life is Armageddon
生活就像個末日戰場
I've got clinical depression
得了臨床憂鬱症
Cause my minds an imperfectionist
腦子裡總像少了些什麼
I fall asleep
整天睡覺度日
Wait
慢著
I don't wanna wake up
一直睡著多好啊
But I never wanna take another pill
可我再也吞不下任何一片藥了
To make me fake fine
這些讓我看上去還過得挺開心的藥
I'll get some help
我要多去睡睡
Listen to my therapist
聽從心理醫生的指導
Who'll try to teach me lessons
他總是叫我幹這干那
But I forget just what the question is
但我忘記了最重要的東西
Cause I'm a ****-up
我的生活一團糟
Stuck here with my hands cuffed
身陷囹圄
Behind my back
手腳束縛
Tryna keep myself intact
怕受傷害
I'm feeling great like Carole Baskin
感覺變成了卡羅巴斯金那樣的兩面派
Hope you know it's all an act cause
但你要知道我這麼做
It's so much easier to lie
只是因為欺騙自己總要好過些
Bad luck if you're someone like me
如果你也和我一樣那你也有夠可憐
Got your head above water
明明浮在水面上
but you still can't even breath it's a
卻還是感到窒息
Pandemic it's a ****in disease
這該死的心理瘟疫
And it's following me
陰魂不散
Bad luck if you're someone like me
如果你也和我一樣那你也有夠倒霉
Got your head above water
明明浮在水面上
but you still can't even breath it's a
卻時刻感覺即將沉溺
Pandemic it's a ****in disease
這該死的心理瘟疫
And it's following me
陰魂不散
You hide your problems
你把一個個難題
At the bottom of the bottle
藏到一個瓶子裡
You forget it all tonight but it's just twice as bad tomorrow
想換來無憂良宵第二天早上卻發現煩惱又已加倍
Cause when you're sober you just wanna stay at home
當你還算清醒只想賴在家裡
But all your friends they call you up and they convince you to go out again
朋友的電話又來了叫你出去玩
These days it's cocaine and a nose ring
這些日子充斥著還有鼻環
Get your fake lips just to fit in
說著假話只為合群
All your friends think they're the shit
他們都認為朋友之間最遜的就是說假話
But they're no different
但他們不也一樣？
Cause none of them ever feel better
沒有人真覺得自己過得還好
They do so much drugs
整天和打著交道
And they probably regret it
可能會後悔
And they act all cool
表現得云淡風輕
As if they are the realist
裝得好像他們才是現實主義人士
But we know that they just don't deal with their feelings
但那隻是因為他們從敢不處理自己的情緒
It's so much easier to lie
畢竟假裝一切很好簡單多了
Bad luck if you' re someone like me
如果你也和我一樣那你也有夠倒霉
Got your head above water
明明浮在水面上
but you still can't even breath it's a
卻還是感到窒息
Pandemic it's a ****in disease
這該死的心理瘟疫
And it's following me
陰魂不散
Bad luck if you're someone like me
如果你也和我一樣那你也有夠倒霉
Got your head above water
明明浮在水面上
but you still can't even breath it's a
卻還是感到窒息
Pandemic it's a ****in disease
這該死的心理瘟疫
And it's following me
陰魂不散
It's like a movie
這是電影嗎
It's not the real me
這不是我應該有的樣子
Oh maybe next time
好吧下次我就承認我最近過得很糟糕
But for now
但至於現在
I'll pretend that I am fake fine
我還是繼續假裝我還好吧
It's like a movie
一切像是電影
It's not the real me
這不是真正的我
Oh maybe next time
好吧下次我可能會承認我最近過得很糟糕
But for now
但至於現在
I'll pretend that I am fake fine
我還是繼續假裝一下吧
Bad luck if you're someone like me
如果你也和我一樣那你也有夠可憐
Got your head above water
明明浮在水面上
but you still can't even breath it's a
卻還是感到窒息
Pandemic it's a ****in disease
這該死的心理瘟疫
And it's following me
陰魂不散
Bad luck if you're someone like me
如果你也和我一樣那你也有夠倒霉
Got your head above water
明明浮在水面上
but you still can't even breath it's a
卻還是感到窒息
Pandemic it's a ****in disease
這該死的心理瘟疫
And it's following me
我何時能擺脫