not what you expected

Lost in the hue of the streetlights
迷失在街燈的色調中
Whippin' thru the rain in the dark night
在黑暗的夜晚，在雨中疾馳
Thoughts clouded in my head, recollecting what you said
回想起你說的話，我腦子裡一片混亂
About the pain I have caused you, you can see my scars too
關於我給你帶來的痛苦，你也能看到我的傷疤
I get it, we live it
我明白，我們要活下去
No I can't keep this hidden
不，我不能把這隱藏
I'm searching for the means to end
我正在尋找結束的方法
Frustration that I've trapped within
我深陷其中的挫敗感
So I'm just not what you expected
所以我和你所期望的不一樣
I'm living so reckless ya you know I'm restless
我生活得如此魯莽，你知道我焦躁不安
Sometimes I just can't even take it
有時我甚至無法承受
Everyday's the same s**t eroding out my patience
每天都是同樣的事，消磨我的耐心
She's lives in the past while i live in the present
她活在過去，而我活在當下
It starts to feel like too much but it's just been a minute
我開始覺得有點太久了，但只是一分鐘而已
I 've been living the worst yet sometimes
我有時過著最糟糕的生活
But do you even care that much to say bye
但你真的在乎說再見嗎
Break me down
令我崩潰
Let me drown
讓我溺死
Hurts so much but don't stop now
傷害這麼多，但現在不要中止
She's had enough it's been a long while
她受夠了好久不見了
So I'm just not what you expected
所以我和你所期望的不一樣
I'm living so reckless ya you know I'm restless
我生活得如此魯莽，你知道我焦躁不安
Sometimes I just can't even take it
有時我甚至無法承受
Everyday's the same s**t eroding out my patience
每天都是同樣的事，消磨我的耐心
I never was what you wanted
我從來都不是你想要的
Taught me how to love then we lost it...
教我如何去愛，然後我們卻失去了它