Chaos

These desires will blind you
欲望蒙蔽你双眼
And that's the start of the end
结束才是真正的开始
I'm just trying to remind you
我努力回忆起你
I won't take part of pretend
我不愿假装可以
Now I see evil inside you
可现在我看到你内心里的恶魔
And wicked thoughts in my head
脑海中充斥着邪恶想法
I want this light without darkness
我要的 是光明 是毫无黑暗杂质的光明
What is life without sin
如若生活没有罪恶 那算什么生活

如若和平不与混乱相伴 算什么和平
What is peace without chaos?
最近 哪个星球的神又在何处呢
And lately what planet's god been on?
为什么我老是生活糟糕又糟糕
Why am I constantly just getting s**t on
一切都变了 只是现在感觉生活像一部衍生剧
Everything's changed, now it feels like a spin off
我想这不过是我游手好闲多管闲事罢了
I guess it's my problem for caring too much
这个世界给予了我过多的爱
The Universe gave me more love
比监视者更敢于去触碰的爱
Than regulator people can dare bare to touch
这就是一切都如此糟糕的原因
But that's the reason that everything ****ed
不敢躺下因为后背被插了把刀

就连死亡时我也面朝黑土
There's a knife in my back and I can't lay down
现状就是对自我憎恨的完全不尊重
So when I die place my face to the ground
我唯一一件在想的事情就是
Full disrespect my self hatred is now
我一直在用毒品和性来解决问题
The only thing I have been thinking about
一次磕五次和裤裆上的拉链让我觉得正确

我不是折纸 不会半途而废 也不会低头哈腰
I've been solvin' my problem with drugs and some sex
但死亡已深入我脑海深处
A 5th and a zip got me feelin' correct
欲望将蒙蔽你双眼
I ain't origami won't fold I won't bend
结束才是真正的开始
But deaths in depths of my head
我努力提醒你

我不愿假装可以
These desires will blind you
死后 我只愿安详长眠
And that's the start of the end
不会遗忘 永不遗忘
I'm just trying to remind you
过去睡在堆放衣服的地方
I won't take part of pretend
过去睡在雨中 头顶无屋棚

我磕 我痛 我悔
Ion sleep I'll just rest when I'm dead
生活不达标 生活一团糟
I don't forgive and I never forget
当你竭尽全力时 你还可以给予什么
Used to sleep where my clothes would be kept
百分之百 没什么剩下的
Used to sleep in the rain with no roof on my head
还不如把我的心掏出来

让我自生自灭
I've got drugs I got pain and regrets
去年我就试了二十次
Lifes got me failin' the test
二十个医生都说我得吃药
What can you give when you've given your best
二十个医生搅乱了我思绪
100 percent nothin' less
磕下十颗药丸然后疯跑的喘不过气来
Might as well rip my heart outta my chest
看到了光明但没人帮我 没人引导我
And leave me for dead
我盲目跌跌撞撞地穿过了地狱

重返地球 看起来我好像没事
Last year alone I had 20 attempts
如果要快点死掉 就像我一样
Had 20 doctors say I need the meds
欲望将蒙蔽你双眼
Had 20 therapists mess with my head
结束才是真正的开始
Popped 10 beans and then ran outta breath
我努力提醒你

我不愿假装可以
Saw the light but had no hand to guide me
I stumbled right through hell blindly
Fell back to earth, but I'm fine see
If you wanna die quick then go be just like me, yeah

These desires will blind you
And that's the start of the end
I'm just trying to remind you
I won't take part of pretend