Control
Oh, I ran once
噢，我曾奔跑
Took my fight across the ocean
迈向大洋彼岸为自己的战役
I thought if I could make my way
我曾想若以我之力
Across the sea, I'd find a place
迈过汪洋，我会寻到那片土地
Now I'm swallowed up
如今我却被吞噬其中
By a city that doesn't give a ****
被一座我甚至不屑一顾的城
To whether I am up on time
是否及时奔赴
Or whether if I'm, well, alive
亦或是 尚存些许生气
And I'm so good, getting too good at hiding
我感觉良好 我太擅长不过遮掩逃避
Too good at keeping to myself
太擅长不过自我封闭
That I'm spiraling
眼前一片天旋地转
I have fell before
我曾跌倒
For some who have wanted me more
因那些不断从我身上索取
Than I could've wanted them
却吝于给予我一丝帮助的人们
Some call it selfishness
或许这就叫做自私
But I'm so scared
可我感到害怕
I'm so scared of the voices
我害怕那些话语
They're telling me I'll end up alone
那是人们说 我将孤独终老
Oh I heard once
噢，我曾听闻
You only love when you're lonely
你只在孤独时感到世间爱意
And you smile when you're hurting
你只在受伤时露出舒心一笑
So it doesn't concern them
因此 一切只在于你自己
But I'm so tired
可我实在疲惫
I'm just so tired of hiding
疲于遮掩逃避
I'm so tired of keeping to myself
疲于自我封闭
That I'm spiraling out of control
我正走向失控
I'm so tired of keeping to myself
我已疲于这样的自我封闭