Holding On To Smoke
I'm tired of feeling comatose
想逃出萎靡不振的彀
I've lost the me that I loved most
最喜爱的自己也溜走
I'm barely holding onto smoke
我几乎没有在战斗
I'm barely holding on to smoke!
我几乎没有在战斗！
I'm not addicted but I'm not clean
我没沉溺但也戒不掉瘾
Why do I do this to myself on repeat
为何要重蹈覆辙我问自己
So disconnected from my own reality
我是如此的脱离自己的实际
Am I man or machine
我是人或机器
If I give, will you take?
是否会收我赠给
As I lie for the taste
那是我谎言的滋味
I just **** it up
我只会把一切搞砸
As you lap it up
当你欣然接受
(Go!)
上！
Through flesh and bone
靠骨和肉
I walk alone
我独自走
(Go!)
上！
If I run will I fade away
如果奔跑将会散如云烟
'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind
又不想把一切都抛一
In all my pride, all my shame
在我傲内，我耻内
I find strength enough to show you
有足够力量展现给你
I may bend but I won't break
能击退但不败溃
'Cause I define who I
因我定义我是谁
Define who I become
还有我成为谁
I miss the me that I have not met
想会会那素未谋面的自己
Choking in silence on the words left unsaid
在未说出的话语里沉默地窒息
I feel a sickness for a home I've never been
我因陌生栖身处生了思乡病
And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red
印在陈旧单色片里但我现在看到激情
I built a shelter in complacency
我得意忘形建了一个避难所
Locked myself in and set fire
锁住自己放火
And threw away the key
扔钥匙都不是被迫
Too scared to live but I'm afraid to die
怕下地狱然而也怕生活
So am I living or am I just alive?
我是在生存还是在堕落？
In all my pride, all my shame
在我傲内，我耻内
I find strength enough to show you
有足够力量展现给你
I may bend but I won't break
能击退但不败溃
I define who I who I become
我定义了我成为谁
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
因我想逃出萎靡不振的彀
I've lost the me that I loved most
哪怕最喜爱的自己也溜走
I'm barely holding on to smoke
我几乎没有在战斗
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
但我会坚持，会坚持
Broken! I'm holding on
打破！我会执着
Driven! To right the wrong
奋力！纠正过错
Silent! Connected yet I feel so separated
沉默！有联系但仍感觉到分离
Fallen! Through flesh and bone
堕落！靠骨和肉
Frozen! I stand alone
冰冻！独自站着
Deafened! In silence the voice remains
震聋！声音继续回荡寂静中
Behind my eyes, beneath my rage
我双眼后，我怒火下
I was struggling to get through
我一直在尽力挣扎
Out of time and out of faith
不管时间和信仰
I define who I become!
我定义了我成为谁！
In all my pride, all my shame
在我傲内，我耻内
I find strength enough to show you
有足够力量展现给你
I may bend but I won't break
能击退但不败溃
'Cause I define who I
因我定义我是谁
Define who I become
还有我成为谁
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
因我想逃出萎靡不振的彀
I've lost the me that I loved most
哪怕最喜爱的自己也溜走
I'm barely holding on to smoke
我几乎没有在战斗
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
但我会坚持，会坚持
I'm tired of being human, tired of being numb
我厌倦落俗，厌倦麻木
I'm waiting for the holy ghost to come
我期待圣灵与我共依附
So save me from the webs that I have spun
所以请把我从自织的网里救出
I'm holding on, holding on
我会坚持，会坚持
I'm holding on
我会坚持
Holding on to smoke!
坚持战斗！