how to live

My friends always ask me if i'd ever let go again
I never respond cuz im scared that i might sound insane
Or maybe i'm just afraid of the answer
Cuz i don't wanna believe that i could ever
Be in control enough so i don't lose it all
I've gained way too much man i cant afford to fall
As long as my past and i are still out at war
I promised myself i wouldn't let down my guard

I been holding myself back
Damn i forgot how to live
I been tryna be perfect
I didn't even question it

I think i forgot
How i'm supposed to live
Yeah i think i f**ked up
I just wanna live

1,2 almost 3 years went by
Without anything to ease my mind
I need some damn peace oh my
It's getting harder to get through the night
So i roll it up for them
And watch them breathe it in
I don't think they understand
Just how bad i wish that i was them

I been holding myself back
Damn i forgot how to live
I been tryna be perfect
I didn't even question it

I think i forgot
How i'm supposed to live
Yeah i think i f**ked up
I just wanna live

F**ked up
F**ked up f**ked up
Fu**ed up

I been holding myself back
Damn near forgot how to live
I been trying to be perfect
I didn't even question it

I think i forgot
How i'm supposed to live
Yeah i think i f**ked up
I just wanna live

I been holding myself back
Damn near forgot how to live
I been trying to be perfect
I didn't even question it

I think i forgot
How im supposed to live
Yeah i think i f**ked up
I just wanna live

I just wanna live