Breaking Me To Pieces

Damn
It's like I'm sentenced to twenty-five to life, trapped in my mind
I've been hopin' for a sign, prayin' for a sign, tryin'
Tryna stay alive but I feel like I'm dyin'
Dark clouds around, all the voices stay silent
I keep you in my life, but no, it's not because I need you
I learned people show you how they feel by how they treat you and mislead you
I'm sick of trustin' all these people
They can't even look themselves in the mirror 'cause they see-through
They say your closest enemies are the people you know
They say the pain is necessary, it's the reason we grow
They say that love is temporary and one day we let go
We eventually move on from all the feelings we show, ****
It feel like it's breaking me to pieces
Running out of things and people to believe in
It feel like I found all my demons
Chasin' all my dreams, yeah
It's not what it seems
And it feel like I'm runnin' out of time
I just can't decide if I wanna be alive
And it feel like I don't wanna leave, but
Every day that pass me, it's gettin' harder to breathe
And it feel like
The ones I needed left me on my own
It feel like I'm drivin', swervin', 'bout to lose control
It feel like, ayy, maybe I'm just not meant for this place
It feel like, uh, I don't belong and I'm just a mistake (I'm just a mistake)
(Oh-oh, no, oh-oh, no)
(Oh-oh, no, oh-oh)
(Oh-oh, no, oh-oh, no)
(Oh-oh, no, oh-oh)
Yeah, drivin' down the interstate
Everybody home asleep, I'm the only one awake
Sometimes I just wanna disappear, wanna go away
I don't wanna shake your hand, I don't wanna have to fake smiles
And conversations 'cause I know they see it in my face
I don't wanna ****in' talk, I just need a ****in' break
I'm not scared of all these shadows, they can't look me in the face
I'm not scared of losin' anyone, we all could be replaced, yeah
Anxiety breakin' my ambition
I don't know where to turn, I feel like something's missin'
All of my friends switchin', family look at me different
Lately, I'm indecisive, I can't make a decision
I don't feel like I wanna die, but I'm not really livin'
In my mind, it's a prison, four walls and a ceilin'
Facin' consequences for actions and selfish decisions
Only thing that was always there for me was my addiction, listen
I don't wanna talk to nobody, don't wanna speak, uh
Sometimes I get lost in my thoughts and I overthink
Sometimes I get lost in the bottle until I sink
Sometimes I just feel like this world just isn't for me
It feel like it's breaking me to pieces
Running out of things and people to believe in
It feel like I found all my demons
Chasin' all my dreams, yeah
It's not what it seems
And it feel like I'm runnin' out of time
I just can't decide if I wanna be alive
And it feel like I don't wanna leave, but
Every day that pass me, it's gettin' harder to breathe
And it feel like
The ones I needed left me on my own
It feel like I'm drivin', swervin', 'bout to lose control
It feel like, ayy, maybe I'm just not meant for this place
It feel like, uh, I don't belong and I'm just a mistake (I'm just a mistake)
(Oh-oh, no, oh-oh, no)
(Oh-oh, no, oh-oh)
(Oh-oh, no, oh-oh, no)
(Oh-oh, no)