ruiner
制作人 : Jay Vee/nothing,nowhere.
年轻的Edgar Allan厌恶在地下室苟活
混音师 : Colin Brittain
却不得不为了自己的梦想和薪资而妥协
音频工程师 : Drew Arndt/Nolan Eley
迷失了前进的方向
母带工程师 : Chris Athens
或许应该要好好分析自己现在的处境
It's the young Edgar Allan spitting live from the basement
早已厌倦自揭伤疤
Do it for the love, give a **** about the payment
但还是在字里行间描述了自己
If I'm being honest, I don't know what I'm chasing
只是想让你们知道 你们不是一个人在与病魔做斗争
Need a space to place my thoughts then exhaust the location
我知道那些当你害怕走出家门
I'm ******* sick of writing all these sad songs
想逃离这个世界时的感受
But I'm just being real, it's how I feel, word is bond
每当身边的人问你为何如此沮丧时
I just wanna let you know you're not alone
身体像灌了铅一般沉重
That I know what it's like when you never leave your home
可那些自己都无法理解的事情又该如何说出口
When you can't get out of bed, can't even check your phone
他们不断告诉我什么才是我应该做的
Can't even lift your head, like your bones are made of stone
巨大的压力几乎把我压垮
When everyone you know is asking why you're feeling low
结束生命的想法时常在脑海中盘旋
But you can't tell 'em why, 'cause you don't even know
过去认识我的人都想抹去我曾在他们记忆里留下的痕迹
I got radio execs tryna say what's best
当我告诉你的妈妈我伤透了你的心时
I got pressure coming down, got me overly stressed
她会对你说些什么呢
I got suicidal thoughts floating thru my head
时过境迁 物是人非
I got people from the past probably hoping I'm dead
现在你坐在浴室地板上止不住的流泪
Oh no, what's your mama gonna say
我想 这可能就是最后的结局了吧
When I tell her that I broke your heart
我失去了理智也失去了最好的朋友
It's just things aren't the way that they used to be
改不改变有什么区别呢
Oh no, now you're crying on the bathroom floor
我只希望自己不再优柔寡断
And I guess it's the end
不再感到虚无
Well I lost my mind and I lost my best friend
能够重回正常人的生活
Yeah, so what if I did and what if I didn't?
凌晨三点 我停滞不前
I just wish I wasn't stuck between decisions
似乎每次打算离开的时候都会想起曾经的我们
I just wish I didn't feel like something's missing
现在的我如同行尸走肉
I just need to get outside this mental prison
但我仍会永远记住你
3am and I'm stuck in a rut
清晨醒来时你不会感到痛苦吗
Seems like every time I leave I end up thinking of us
每当夜幕降临
I keep ******* with your head like a lobotomy
这该死的感觉又来到我的身边
I lost it all and you'll always be a part of me
不知其源 更无法逃脱
Can't you feel the pain when you wake up?
记得年幼的我们在家乡的时候
Late again and it's dark out
只要你来到我身边 便能减轻我的痛苦
I don't even know where it came from
可惜这些都已成回忆
Can't escape, got me feeling down
回首往昔只会令我更加沮丧
I remember days in our hometown
当我告诉你的妈妈我伤透了你的心时
Things change when you come around
她会对你说些什么呢
Now they're just memories now
时过境迁 物是人非
Keep feeling up then I'm feeling down
现在你坐在浴室地板上放声大哭
Oh no, what's your mama gonna say
我知道 一切都结束了
When I tell her that I broke your heart
我失去了理智也失去了最好的朋友
It's just things aren't the way that they used to be
Oh no, now you're crying on the bathroom floor
And I guess it's the end
Well I lost my mind and I lost my best friend