I waste my time on my whole life
Hold my thoughts cuz I've been sleep deprived
I waste my life in broke mind
Hold my words cuz they never come out right
I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be be fine
I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find
That my reflection in life isn't all that unkind
Can't I be a little self sure
Self secure On that I'm not all that I think I am
Can't I get a little control
Open my doors,On that I'm not all that bad as I think i am
I don't really care for what I have left
Because i ****** myself up so much,I might deserve all this mess
**** all this love,Because I hate to admit
That I'm really like this,Just Scum piece of ****
And I know I could be brighter
Yeah I know I could aim higher
I know I should think lighter
I know i'll be fine if I was a tryer
Yeah,I hate how I can't let myself hang low
If I didn't speak at all I think I would let it go
But if I could say how I hurt I would promise to let you know
But I've been feeling godamn low,well I just can't let it go
Do you remember 2013
From then on I wished my life was unseen
Cuz I hate who I could have been,Let myself slit up my skin
And drown all my dreams,Going down In the sink
I'm sorry maybe I should have tried harder
Jumped from a bridge that was just that little bit higher
I'm sorry My words can't be any sharper
But I'd cut up my mind and set the remains on fire
Yeah,At least you could have said I'm gone on the drugs
But I am sober now and I still seem to **** up
But I'm sorry I can't accept all your love,It wears me off
Leave me in my head because that's tiring enough?
I waste my time on my whole life
Hold my thoughts cuz I've been sleep deprived
I waste my life in broke mind
Hold my words cuz they never come out right
I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be fine
I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find
The reflection in life isn't all that unkind