PTSD

Can't find no peace of mind
Can't even sleep if I tried
These demons creep through my mind everyday
I'm paranoid and I'm tired
Can't leave the street sh*t behind me
This PTSD remind me everyday
Can't find no peace of mind
I seek relief from these highs
The sweet release from what's hiding in my brain yeah
Feeling like I can't be
I'm just trying to run away yeah
I'm just trying to run away
Cause I feel like I can't be saved
I feel like I can 't be saved
I'm just trying to run away
I'm just trying to run away
Cause I feel like I can't be saved
Can't find no peace of mind
Can't leave these streets if I tried
No TV screen this sh*t live where I stay
Smoke streaming through the sky
Police shooting at toddlers
People freaking when sirens on the way
I tried I really tried
These kids really be dying
Still you rather scrutinize what I'm saying
You rather focus on a line
And twist it to speak these lies
Acting like the f**king 9 on my case
Came up outta trenches I been keeping that aggression
Cause there ain't no code of ethics
They just wanna see me go down
Call in crowd control cause every show we do a full house
God made me his vessel I can't ever sell my soul
Yeah the recognise the real OG's bumping my sh*t they feel me
Them labels fight for deals
They know last summer I made a milli
They tryna steal my style
I know your pain don't come from the field
Real pain the type to never heal
I' m just trying to run away yeah
I'm just trying to run away
Cause I feellike I can't be saved
I feel like I can't be saved
I'm just trying to run away
I'm just trying to run away
Cause I feel like I can 't be saved
God I hate being stuck going back to the dirt
Everyday somebody test me for my capital worth
Said they out to catch me lacking so we catching em first
Stomp they a* * out on the curb
Cause they don't learn until they back with the nurse aye
God I'm tried to stay out of the violence
I promised I would better myself
Promised momma that I was done yeah I said it myself
Suspended sentence above my head I ain't tryna end up in jail
So I can't trip over this bullsh*t they be starting over pride
Just to spend 25 in the pen by myself
God I swear these streets could never prevail
But after all I done
I still can't get myself out the field
Can't find no peace of mind
Can't even sleep if I tried
These demons creep through my mind everyday
I'm paranoid and I'm tired
Can't leave the street sh*t behind me
This PTSD remind me everyday
Can't find no peace of mind
I seek relief from these highs
The sweet release from what's hiding in my brain yeah
Feeling like I can't be saved
I'm just trying to run away yeah
I'm just trying to run away
Cause I feel like I can't be saved
I feel like I can't be saved
I 'm just trying to run away
I'm just trying to run away
Cause I feel like I can't be saved
I feel like I can't be saved