champ

That hoodie was the best thing to happen to me
Like the one thing that you salvage from a house fire
When you dropped me at her house cause Im just too much to deal with
Im the last kid that should be around a lighter
And lyings such a chore, but the truth feels so wrong
And every turn I make just keeps me from getting where I want
But when I confide in her, I tear apart the earth
Theres somebody who has it ten times worse
Theres no time left to pity and I see it in my friends
And they all look so much older than me
But tonight Im feeling brave, I think Ill act my age until a kid says that theres something wrong with me
And sometimes the smoke smells good
Leave the window open when its freezing cold
I know
When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show
I ditched you guys and died, laid in the snow
Spent too many nights
Pinching my sides wondering if Im living in a dream
When I dont know who to ask
I think that Ill just pass, like, maybe Ill just figure it out myself
Butterflies inside me, they turn into tapeworms
And I stay awake till my stomach hurts
So when its 4 AM and I cant eat anything
Ill wake up too late and get what I deserve
And I know, I told you two weeks, but its been seventeen years
And every time I sing they close their ears
Its all in my head, its cheesy but its true
If I could, Id blame it all on you
Sometimes Id tryto talk, and nothing comes out
And most of my memories arent how they really were
Im slipping on the line, Im confused all the time
When you go to claim your bags, dont claim whats mine
And sometimes the smoke smells good
Leave the window open when its freezing cold
I know
When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show
I ditched you guys and died , laid in the snow

I have this funny dream that I moved to Bombay Beach
And Im never seen or heard from again
Wont have to watch out for sharks swimming in the Salton Sea
Even though Im more than sure that one just bit me
And Ive been performing poorly, but its so hard to be honest
Shes been threatening that I go get some help
When I picture your face it comes up as someone else
Someone whos treated me the same way