what i am

Ive been faded in the basement, contemplating
All the places I escape to gotta face it
Im erasing faces from my brain just to replace it
Cause I got so much pain in here that only Ive created
Man, I just dont know if I can do this anymore
I shut the ******* door on everyone that I adore
And only wants to watch me soar
Im starting wars with the help that Ive been looking for
So I dont have to swim ashore and ruin who Ive guarantored
I think Ill stop breathing
(Stop breathing)
Run away just to escape all my demons
(Escape all my demons)
You dont know how Im feeling but
The pressure on my back got me crying for no reason
Im a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain is all I can
Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand
Life is full of ****-ups and I know just what I am
Yeah I know just what I am
Mute my sound, let me drown, Im not calming down
I think its over now, like king without a ******* crown
My thrones been thrown around, and times still slowing down
Ill take it as a sign to barricade and wreck my proper noun
It only hurts, with every verse, I think Im ******* cursed
Tell me it gets better, Ill feel worse, yeah that * ***s rehearsed
Im too perverse to smiles, so Im breathing in reverse
Tryna lure my lungs to burst and bodybag me in a hearse
I think Ill stop breathing
(Stop breathing)
Run away just to escape all my demons
(Escape all my demons)
You dont know how Im feeling like
The pressure on my back got me crying for no reason
Im a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain is all I can
Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand
Life is full of ****-ups and I know just what I am
Yeah I know just what I am
What I am is a prodigy
(Is a prodigy)
Im a full metal alchemist, using reverse psychology
To make myself believe that I am proud of me
(That I am proud of me)
But I hate my ******* face in all honesty
Honestly, I dont think Ill make it past twenty-six
(Past twenty-six)
Seven grams in the grinder, wheres the ****s the spliff?
Rollin sticky cause Im feeling like ******* ****
(Like ******* **** )
Separation anxietys just a ******* trip
I find it funny when you tell me that you care
You say that you love me but your loves not fair
Distancing yourself from the feelings I impair
If you wanna let me go, better tell me when and where
(When and where)