dear tragedy

Im never waking up again
so Ill never have to find out what you did
Each day its harder to pretend
That your eyes arent lying as much as your mouth did
Id grab your head by your hair and Id hack it off
And put it on display at the front of the yard
on a stick thats decorated with a little pink bow
and a sign that says 'Her friends and family
should have taught her more about love.'
Dear Tragedy, I never had anybody
But being alone wasnt half as bad
as being obsessed with a breath taker, a smile faker
But these years alone have eaten me alive
Recounting pages in a book
That Id torn out ashamed that one day youd look
Afraid that once you did youd really know
how it felt to be a sucker on a string
that you dragged around wherever youd go
Im running around, around and it hurts
Tempted to tape up the pages Id ripped
And although I recognize that were attached at the lips
youre the one in charge
and that the captains gotta sink with the ship
Breath taker, smile faker
how could I have let you in my life?
Youre a breath taker, smile faker
These years alone have eaten me alive