Blame It On Bad Luck

Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall.
But I did this to myself.
Assume its just not worth getting back up, so
Ill blame it on bad luck.
And Ill shake responsibility, yeah.
I spent some time in a bad place at 18, wishing
I could see something through clear eyes.
Do you ever wake up to realize that your life is meaningless?
Does it give you strength or lead you to your grave at a young age?
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall.
But I did this to myself .
Assume its just not worth getting back up, so
Ill blame it on bad luck.
And Ill shake responsibility, yeah.
It seems that when
I ran away from my past all my dignity, my faith, my pride got left back.
And now I think its time that
I realize self pitys meaningless.
Though Im 10 feet deep,
Ill claw my way back out from in my grave.
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall.
But I did this to myself.
Assume its just not worth getting back up,
So Ill blame it on bad luck.
And Ill shake responsibility.
And say a hard life did this to me.
Now I realize,
Id give anything
I have to walk a day in my old shoes.
Wondering what my first smoke would be like, my first ****, my next **** up. {
Or} the next band that would change my life and it changed my life and it changed my life.
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head againstthe wall.
But I did this to myself.
Assume its just not worth getting back up,
So Ill blame it on bad luck.
And Ill shake responsibility.
And say a hard life did this to me.