Lost Child

Big D, Lost Child Big D
This bout my demons in the past
Gotta get em out to move on
Livin in fking locked cage
Should've been finding who I is
It was supposed to be the fkin rock age
(Drop Hating) It's like a simpler goal to aim
It ain't so would ya stop sayin
You ain't got no fking idea bout this locked rage
Hunid times since I been askin if I meant to end up
lost in abyss & chaos, in howling Inferno
Used to having faith believing I can find a way
To my redemption and salvation
But how is it eternal?
What? Just tell me, this youth pathetic, ain't it?
The independence of him life been decapitated
Hey, since I be fkin brain washed, manipulated
What I lost are more than options to be rejuvenated
It's a nightmare not to be living it how I like it
Till I'm dying
I never stop regreting givin up flying
So I'm Trying
I'm striving to revive the fire lit up inside of my eyes
So my life and I never be isolated
But it's , hard as I peel it off
Darkness and despairs round me
Far as I can recall
Part that I deserve to carry
Heartless spirit, fainted souls and only pains surround me
And it found me, inside my penitentiary
It's oddity, what I's ever asking for no more than one apology
It's however what u never had the courtesy to offer me
Such an Irony
Cuz after me, my life to be a tragedy
To show this agony pulled out of me
“Can not be staying lost”
What it told me when I can not be suffocating more
Cannot be devastated more
I'm hating al
Through daily torture, can't ignore all em pain & sore
WTF they paying for ?
What am I here waiting for ?
Countless of regrets, they forming time crevice
Stuck a lost child, crying with left behind wishes
In cemetery what is turning gladness to ashes
And what smashes the baddest I did trap as the last witness
Whatever other path that I selected been contaminated
With your fking faith it ain't gon rehabilitate
Not my debt to be repaid, for such a past full of mistakes
Just wanna pay off for what it takes
Enough to get this sh1t out of my way
It is a nightmare not to be living it how I like it
Till I'm dying
I never stop regreting givin up flying
So I'm Trying
I'm striving to revive the fire lit up inside of my eyes
So my life and I never be isolated
Still it's, hard as I peel it off
Darkness and despairs round me
Far as I can recall
Part that I deserve to carry
Heartless spirit, fainted souls and only pains surround me
And it found me, an evanescent solitary
Yeah rite, it's dreadful, painful days that he been fragil
Since he cowered in spiritual castle
Been dragged through
Man in mirror his mid finger up and cursing "F you"
Tackled by illusion of devil, can't pass through
Knuckle under to his fate, erasing memories since eighty-six
Nothing else to reminisce for pessimist
Man without a past, he future ain't exist
Psycho wander in a cycled fking labyrinth of present tense
Ye, Never been so frightened
I been struggling to be standin up but I feel so weak
Nothin enlightens me
Who stopping me from chasing dreams
I'm making peace with enemy
But I wanna be tough enough to face my own defeat
Cuz it's a nightmare not to be living it how I like it
Till I'm dying
I never stop regreting givin up flying
So I'm Trying
I'm striving to revive the fire lit up inside of my eyes
So my life and I never be isolated
But it's, hard as I peel it off
Darkness and despairs round me
Far as I can recall
Part that I deserve to carry
Heartless spirit, fainted souls and only pains surround me
And it found me, inside my penitentiary
Hard as I peel it off
Far as I can recall
And it found me
Penitentiary