Underground

my head is pounding, i cant stop the pounding
i think it is going to explode
and kill everybody whos in close proximity
to the place i call my home
and theyll make a moving made for tv movie
for lifetime all about my life
that ends with an epitaph, one that will make you laugh
that says 'great mom, okay wife'
and itll be funny to the people who know me
who know if my bodys not burned
my soul will spend an eternity in misery
tethered and bound to this earth
so im not a **** or a stick in the mud
always ruining things for my friends
i mustnt forget when i see the sun set
that tomorrow it will rise again
so i tattoo instructions on my ass
that say 'dont ever put this body in a casket
burn it and put the ashes in a basket
and throw them in the puget sound'
i dont ever want to be underground
oh no, oh no
im wearing size thirteen basketball shoes
and lavender fishnets, im freaked out and ****** up
and im standing alone in an alley with you
wanting to show you a cure for your hiccups
but instead i close my eyes
the needles are numbered so im writing you letters
and i cannot disguise
the fact that im nervous when we are together
and so i fantasize
that the nightsll get shorter and the days will get better
i feel a kick inside, inside
if this is a girl, im naming her heather
shell look just like you, but her hair will be feathered
shell say how you died before you ever met her
her hair will be feathered
my head is pounding, i cant stop the pounding
i think it is going to explode
there are plus and minuses to sinusitis
like sometimes i get to go home
but mostly it hurts so bad i think im dying
i just blew my nose and now i feel like crying
and the dreams i have are all of my past lives
and the seizures would paralyse me in the night
and id wake up clutching my teddy bear tight
and im drooling and trying to turn on the light
all i can do is hold fast and sit tight
but what if they forget? cause you know they just might
so i tattoo instructions on my ass
that say dont ever put this body in a casket
burn it and put the ashes in a basket
and throw them in the puget sound
i dont ever want to be underground
oh no, oh no