The Dream

Yeah
Lately I feel like the devils watching, he taunts me
I been having these thoughts in my head, they haunt me
I been trying to keep my focus but I keep having this dream
That I lost my life when I got shot in 2015, and
I walk around my city and no one sees me
I used to think, 'If I died it would be so easy'
Well, here I am, feel like everyone left me
Now Im back at home and everything feels so empty
Upstairs I see the girl I love crying alone
I see the cuts on her wrists, shes scared of dying alone
I said her name softly, I swear that she looked right at me
Thats when I tried to walk up to her,
But she walked past me, damn
At my funeral, they dressed in all black
Everybody mourning my death while I stand in the back
And I look at they faces, in they eyes the pain is so clear
But the people that I called my friends, they aint even here
Crazy how quickly they forget, instead of mourning my death
They fighting over who gets the house
And who gets the checks, damn
I gave my heart to these people throughout these songs
And its sad to know that
None of it matters now that Im gone, damn
Yeah, yeah
All my albums are on the charts,
And all the radios wanna play me
I guess it took me to die for them to appreciate me
I see them posting and saying how much they miss me
But back when I was alive
And depressed they aint never hit me
Before I died they all used to hate me, but now its funny
They post pictures,
They all tryin' to claim me but never loved me
Spit on my name when I was alive, Ill never forget
Its sad that they wait till you die to show they respect, but
Finally all the people who I looked up to
Say how they respect me, saying they woulda loved to
Meet me in the past, but its too late for that now
The way these people used to treat me,
They cant take it back now
People tell stories about how we were close
And how they would ride for me
I know Im gone, but that energy they cant hide from me
Award shows and these red carpets the same
They make these tributes to my name,
But back then they never invited me
Look, Im at the Grammys,
I wish I could tell my mom I made it
It only took a hole in my head to be nominated
I looked for love from these people but all along
What they said was true,
They dont love you until you gone, ****
But the truth is this life never goes the way you plan it
I guess the point of this song
Is dont take your life for granted
And appreciate people while they still here
And before you judge someone take a look in the mirror
Because at any moment anything could happen
Nothing is ever promised, but you can just imagine
How it would be, so I give the type of love I want for me
Cause one day itll be my last
And it wont just be a dream, I mean