Dear God

I just want to make this clear
我只想跟你說清楚
I am a believer
我是一個虔誠的信徒
But sometimes it gets hard
但有時候卻很艱難
My name is Dax
我的名字叫做Dax
Dear God
親愛的主啊！
There's a lot of questions that I have about the past
我有很多關於過往的疑問
And I don't want hear it from a human you made
可我卻不想從您的造物那兒得到答案
So you're the last person that I'm ever gonna ask
因此，您是我最後一個會問的人
Tell me what's real, tell me what's fake
告訴我何為真，何為假
Why is everything about you a debate?
為何一切關於你的事都陷入了爭辯
What's the point of love?
愛的意義又何在
Every time I've showed it I was broken
每次我都表現出心碎的樣子
And it's forced me just to only wanna hate
它讓卻逼迫我產生憎恨之情
Why's there only one you but multiple religions?
為何世界上只得一個主宰卻有紛繁複雜的教派？
Why does every conversation end in a division?
為何每次交流都以分歧收尾？
Why does everybody want to tell us how to live
為何世人都要教會我怎樣才是生活
But they won't listen to the same damn message that they giving?
但他們卻從未親身實踐他們給我的建議？
Tell me how to feel, tell me what's wrong
告訴我怎樣去感受，告訴我錯誤為何物
I tried to call, pick up the phone
我拿起電話，嘗試著打給你
I'm on my own
我獨自一人
Everybody says you're coming back,
每個人都說你回歸了這個世界
Then man why the hell's it taking so long?
唉！人類啊！為什麼要花這麼長的時間？
Why do I hurt?
我為何會受傷？
Why is there pain?
傷痛為何又會出現？
Why does everything good always have to change?
為何每一件好事都會改變？
Why does everybody try to profit off another man's work
為何每個人都想從別人的辛勤中獲益
Then destroy it just for monetary gain?
然後又為了金錢之利而選擇過河拆橋？
Tell me are you black or are you white?
告訴我你是黑人還是白人
I don’t even really care I justreally want to know what's right
我其實也沒那麼在乎，我只是想知道正義長什麼樣
They been saying one thing but I've been looking in the book
他們反复糾結於一件事，但我也從書中得到真諦
And it seems like they've been lying for my whole damn life
似乎他們都為了我的整個人生而編織了謊言
Tell me where I' m going
告訴我該何去何從
Is it heaven or hell?
是天堂嗎，還是地獄？
I just hope this message greets you well
我只希望你能收到我的消息
I had a dream that I was walking with the devil
我曾夢到我與魔鬼同行
Don't remember how it feels but I swear that I remember the smell
雖然我不記得我當時心情如何，但是我能嗅到那滋味
Looked me right into my eyes and told me everything
它通過我的雙眼看到我的內心，並且告訴了我
I wanted could be mine if I gave up and decided to sell
如果我放棄堅持，決定以靈魂交換，我能滿足我的慾望
But I said I'd rather die then get mine
但是我卻說道，我寧死來實現自我
Now I'm here no fear one man with a story to tell
現在我是一個想要訴說的人，無畏又無懼
Dear God
敬愛的主啊
Where were you when I needed it?
當我需要你時，你在哪呢？
When I ****ed up and repeated it?
當我一次又一次陷入挫折
When they set the bar and I exceeded it?
每當他們給我設起障礙，我卻總能跨越
My life is like a book that they've been judging by
我的人生就像是一本書
A cover but have never took the time to ****ing read the ****
他們僅僅被封面迷惑，卻不肯花時間去翻閱它
I remember telling you my goals and my dreams
我依稀記得我曾跟你傾吐過我的夢想
But you didn't even answer
但你從未回應
So I guess you didn't believe in it
因此，我猜想你根本不相信我
I remember sitting with a gun to my head trying to ask you
我依稀記得我曾舉槍對准我的太陽穴
For some help but I guess you didn't believe in it!
試圖尋求你的幫助，但我還是認為你從不相信我
I don't want religion I need that spirituality
我不需要宗教，我需要的是精神寄託
I don't want a church I need people to call a family
我並不想去教堂，我只想尋找可以成為我家人的人
I don't wanna tell my sins to another sinner just
我不想跟另外一個戴罪之人懺悔我的罪過
Because he's got a robe and he went to some academy
因為他只是身著一件道袍，也上過幾年的神學院
I don't wanna read it in a book, I wanna hear it from you
我不想在書海裡游盪，我只想讓你給我答案
Don't wanna learn it in a school because they're hiding the truth
我也不想訴諸於校園，因為那裡隱瞞了太多的真相
Don't wanna talk about it to another ****ing human being
我也不想和另外一個凡人交談
And that's only reason that I even stepped in this booth
這就是為什麼我踏入了這個錄音棚
Dear God
親愛的主啊！
How do I take this darkness and turn it into light?
我要如何消化這沉重的黑暗，讓它幻化成光明？
How do I believe in a concept where I speak to a man
我要如何相信這些用於交談的抽象概念
I've never seen with my own two eyes?
我從來沒有親眼見過
How do I know that religion wasn't made
我又如確保，宗教並非人為建構而得
Just to separate the world and create a whole disguise
意圖分化這個世界，進而讓它陷入無盡的假象？
Just to keep us in these chains while the rich get richer
意圖讓那些有錢人永遠富裕，而我們無法從桎梏中抽身？
And the poor pray to you and perpetuate a lie?
窮人們向您虔誠禱告，只是為了繼續活在謊言之中嗎？
How do I know this ain't some big joke?
我要怎樣確保，這些並非謊言？
How can I have faith when there is no hope?
當希望盡失，我又要怎樣維持初衷？
How the hell does one man have 100 billion dollars
為什麼在一個人能身享數百億身家的同時
And we still have people on the street that are broke?
而我們總看到窮人流連於街頭？
There's a lot of things I wanna talk about and get off my chest
當然我有很濃的表達慾望，我想要直抒胸臆一吐為快
I can't sleep 'cause the devil won't let me rest
我夜不成寐，因為惡魔縈繞在我身畔
I used to know a ****ing pastor in a church
我以前認識一個牧師
And I can still hear the screams of the kids
當他殘酷地戕害那些無辜的孩童時
He would ****ing molest
我仍能聽到孩子們慘烈的喊叫聲
Dear God
主啊！
Do you hear me?
你能不能聽到
I'm supposed to fear you but you ain't said ****
我本該敬畏你，但你他×的總是三緘其口
So maybe it's you who actually fears me?
所以也許是你還怕我了？
I don't know the answer I just want to see it clearly
我雖不知答案為何，我只想要看得清清楚楚
So many lies there's a 1000 different theories
那麼多謊言背後有一千種不同的說法
All I want to know is who really made religion
誰能告訴我到底是誰創造了宗教
Because I know it wasn't you but don' t nobody believes me
因為我知道不是你，但是沒人肯相信我
No more lies, no more death
沒有謊言，就沒有死亡
Bring back King, bring back X
把馬丁路德金帶回來吧，把馬爾科姆帶回來
Please dear God let their souls rest
敬愛的主啊，就讓他們的靈魂安息吧
Protect who's left and watch their steps
庇佑那些生者，保佑他們
Dear God
親愛的主啊！
I don't want to have to ask you again
我不想再問多你一次了
I just hope that you know that I'm still a believer
我只希望你知道，我仍舊是一個虔誠的信徒
So I'll end this all by saying amen
因此，我最後再說一聲“阿門”
It's Dax
我是Dax