Deeper Than Blood

Sometimes pain runs deeper than blood
Sometimes karma comes back on the people you love
Sometimes we gotta let go and turn the other way
We just fightin for another day
Cause everything has a cause, you may not like the effect
A heart full of pain and a life full of regrets
Forced to make certain choices that you might not respect
In this world full of hate, just a child of neglect
You may not like the effect, life full of regrets
You might not respect, a child of neglect
Verse 1
He was breathin in cigarrette smoke, watching cartoons
Loud yells comin from the other room
Landlord bangin on the door askin where the fuckin rent at cause its 30 days overdue
Nobody answers it
They was smokin up the house like they aint know that shit was cancerous
But his mom is still tryna quit
She aint got no one to depend on to provide for her kids
Shes working 2 jobs
Barely makin enough to fill his stomach
Its still filled with nothing
Hard times, she can feel em coming
And its been that while for a while
She raisin a fatherless child, you can see the pain in her smile
She got unpaid bills piling on up the counter
No matter how close to the edge she got something about her
And never let her lose hope
Even when she hit rock bottom, she feels the noose around her neck
Its just a loose rope
But its only getting tighter, suffocating her slowly
Shes a lover and a fighter, but something just keepsher lonely
She got a collect call but she already know who its from
She took a deep breath, answered the phone and begun
She said I gotta move on with my life, I told you its done
Plus its been 2 months since you spoke to your son
Its not about me and its not about you anymore
Its not about running the streets and acting a fool anymore
Youve been gone for 7 years, theirs nothing you can do anymore
Cause Ive lost everything and I just cant bear to lose anymore
You see, theirs somebody else
Not because Im in love, but cause I needed some help
The type of help you cant provide
Im sick of waiting
Im sick of sittin around knowing you might not make it out alive
Sick of not havin somebody by my side
Sick of our kids askin 'wheres our daddy?'
Im sick of tellin them these lies
Im just sick of it all
And if you ever met parole and have plans for the future, please dont get us involved
Dont call, dont write
And most of all, leave my child alone
And before he could say a word
All he heard is a dial tone
Verse 2
As his mother put down the phone he heard her saying
'God, I really need you right now, please just show me a sign, my heart is bleeding right now'
But he was only a kid, so he really didnt really know much
Still tryna understand why his mother cried so much
Fathers Day was the worst
Plus they aint had no money in thebank, so it felt like every holiday was a curse
And his birthday just passed
Hes getting ready for a lonely Christmas
They say his dad is gone for business
But he knows the difference
Starting to forget his fathers face and what he looked like
No bedtime stories, no good mornings, no good night
Just a good luck from the judge, his life would change with a sentence
Slam the gavel down, hes found guilty of all the offenses
On the other side of the fence, left his child defenseless
Now he fends for himself, but he feels so relentless
His mommas boyfriend drinks until his demons come out
The liquor takes control of his soul, he dont speak with his mouth
He speaks with his fist, disagree get beat til your pissed
The type of pain thatll make you put a knife deep in your wrist
Speak with his fistThe type of pain thatll make you put a knife deep in your wrist
Bridge
You didnt have a clue
That you got people who
Youre affecting too
Its not just you..
Outro: Phora
Sometimes the choices you make, they dont only effect you
But they also effect the people you love and care about
You see, I wish I could say that its never too late
But I would only be lying to you
Because time and the people we love
Are the only two things we can never get back in this world