Secrets (Prod. Quatro)

Verse 1
She said she couldnt stay too late
She gotta be home by ten, she had school the next day
She wasnt the type to play
She aint like them other chicks
She aint known for getting drunk, popping pills, or sucking dick
More like the type to show up to class
An hour early, never wearing shorts thats showing her ass
Got to hold on her past, cant let go of it
She dont really smile, but nobody ever notices
Grade A student, all her teachers love her
She just wished she felt that same love from her mother
But shes stuck in county jail for eighteen months
So its just her and pops and everyday hes drunk
They hardly talk, so when she gets to the house
She goes straight to her room and she shuts the lights out
Hoping the next day comes sooner than later
She cant wait to move out, four-hundred dollars saved up
She knows she got a long way to go
But she keeps her head so high, youd probably never know
What she had to go through for so long
Yo, but she never forgets to hold on
Hook
She said, 'If you knew my secret, I wonder what youd say
I wonder if youd leave and I wonder if youd stay
I wonder if youd see me in a different way
Its hard to hold this in, I think about it everyday'
Yeah, I wonder what youd say
I wonder if youd see me in a different way
I think about it everyday
Verse 2
She met a kid named Joey, knew he had a crush
Always made her laugh and said things to make her blush
But she tried so hard to pay him no attention
Scared her past would eventually ruin the friendship
Cause its so hard for her to open her feelings
He said, 'If you dont give me your heart beautiful
Imma steal it'
So twelve months passed and ever since he said that
She been in love, but everybody has their setbacks
Slowly, but surely he was fading away
While she was falling deeper for him and she waited for days
For him to call her like he always did, but five days went by and
If you listen closely you can hear her still crying
She wrote on paper saying, 'Im sorry'
I just wish you knew youre the reason that my heart beats
Always made me smile ever since the day you saw me
You were my guardian angel when I had nobody
Yo, but theres something I havent told you
For six years there was something that I had to go through
That shattered my spirit and my dreams, I know you can see it
My father did these things to me and no one believed it
My mom was never there to see, I hope when she reads this
She ODs on the very thing that broke us to pieces
You were the only person I ever loved
And it kills me inside to know that I was the one
To ruin what we had and I knew this would happen
Yo, I just thought me and you wouldve lasted
Knife to her wrist as she dropped to the floor
But right be before she cut she heard a knock at the door
Hook
She said, 'If you knew my secret, I wonder what youd say
I wonder if youd leave andI wonder if youd stay
I wonder if youd see me in a different way
Its hard to hold this in, I think about it everyday'
Yeah, I wonder what youd say
I wonder if youd see me in a different way
I think about it everyday