i think i'm paranoid

If I write like this, will I be the best?
這樣寫，真的是最好的嗎
If I get famous quick, will she read a text?
好想快點出名，她會讀下一篇嗎
Downstream going right, should've made a left
順流而下
If the current does shift they gon run me less
如果真的變了，他們會逃避我
On the wave till it crash, and I'm never shore
在海浪上，直到它崩塌，而我卻永遠不在岸邊
How I feel cause I want it but they want it more
我怎麼想，但他們更想要
Paranoid all the time so I hide out
一直偏執，所以我選擇逃避
Gotta sleep with my eyes open when I lie down
當我躺下的時候，我得睜著眼睡覺
So confused in this life that I live
我在這一生中是如此迷茫
Out of energy regretting all the hype that I give
我對自己的宣傳感到後悔
Pouring up but I'm sober won't be taking a sip
但我不會屈服的
Always tripping from the smoke so I'm faking a hit
一次又一次地被絆倒，但我會假裝成功
I never pray for assist, I do it all on my own
我從不祈求幫助，我都是一個人度過難關
It's staring way too long I'm boutta turn to a stone
這只是一塊石頭
Or maybe turn to a ghost, got bullet holes in my clothes
或者變成鬼魂，我衣服上有彈孔
They looking out for my folks, but really can't cause I'm broke, woah
他們在照顧我的家人，我已經千瘡百孔
If I write like this, will I be the best?
這樣寫，真的是最好的嗎
If I get famous quick, will she read a text?
好想快點出名，她會讀下一篇嗎
Downstream going right, should've made a left
順流而下
If the current does shift they gon run me less
如果真的變了，他們會逃避我
On the wave till it crash, and I'm never shore
在海浪上，直到它崩塌，而我卻永遠不在岸邊
How I feel cause I want it but they want it more
我怎麼想，但他們更想要
Paranoid all the time so I hide out
一直偏執，所以我選擇逃避
Gotta sleep with my eyes open when I lie down
當我躺下的時候，我得睜著眼睡覺