farther from home

I lay awake and look at the ceiling and wonder why
Im so afraid to face all these feelings and want to die
Im out of place and nothings appealing to stay alive
Why try to face it when its so easy to say goodbye
Its all unfolding its so controlling
It tries to pull me under nothings going right for me
This tensions growing it tries to hold me
Hear me scream
Im taking over
With my back to the ropes Im never letting go
Im moving closer
Everything that I know is feeling farther from home
Im never giving in
This world Im living in is losing color
Im taking over
With my back to the ropes Im never letting go
I try to make the changes its so hard to sway my mind
There is no way to make it but to leave these scars behind
Within my thoughts are racing Im too far away at times
I drive myself insane its tearing me apart inside
Its all unfolding its so controlling
It tries to pull me under nothings going right for me
This tensions growing it tries to hold me
Hear me scream
Im taking over
With my back to the ropes Im never letting go
Im moving closer
Everything that I know is feeling farther from home
Im never giving in
This world Im living in is losing color
Im taking over
With my back to the ropes Im never letting go
I take a deep breath down inside
I shake and try to breathe but I
Hate the way that I lived my life
And it seems
All the lies that I try to hide
Remind me of what I left behind
Unwinding thoughts inside my mind
Hear me scream
Im screaming out loud
Its all just weighing on me
Its all just weighing on me
Its all just weighing on me
Im reaching out
Im screaming out loud
Im taking over
With my back to the ropes Im never letting go
Im moving closer
Everything that I know is feeling farther from home
Im never giving in
This world Im living in is losing color
Im taking over
With my back to the ropes Im never letting go
Im never letting go
With my back to the ropes Im never letting go