Chaos

These desires will blind you
慾望蒙蔽你雙眼
And thats the start of the end
結束才是真正的開始
Im just trying to remind you
我努力回憶起你
I wont take part of pretend
我不願假裝可以
Now I see evil inside you
可現在我看到你內心裡的惡魔
And wicked thoughts in my head
腦海中充斥著邪惡想法
I want this light without darkness
我要的是光明是毫無黑暗雜質的光明
What is life without sin
如若生活沒有罪惡那算什么生活

如若和平不與混亂相伴算什麼和平
What is peace without chaos?
最近哪個星球的神又在何處呢
And lately what planets god been on?
為什麼我老是生活糟糕又糟糕
Why am I constantly just getting s**t on
一切都變了只是現在感覺生活像一部衍生劇
Everythings changed, now it feels like a spin off
我想這不過是我遊手好閒多管閒事罷了
I guess its my problem for caring too much
這個世界給予了我過多的愛
The Universe gave me more love
比監視者更敢於去觸碰的愛
Than regulator people can dare bare to touch
這就是一切都如此糟糕的原因
But thats the reason that everything ****ed
不敢躺下因為後背被插了把刀

就連死亡時我也面朝黑土
Theres a knife in my back and I cant lay down
現狀就是對自我憎恨的完全不尊重
So when I die place my face to the ground
我唯一一件在想的事情就是
Full disrespect my self hatred is now
我一直在用毒品和性來解決問題
The only thing I have been thinking about
一次磕五次和褲襠上的拉鍊讓我覺得正確

我不是摺紙不會半途而廢也不會低頭哈腰
Ive been solvin my problem with drugs and some sex
但死亡已深入我腦海深處
A 5th and a zip got me feelin correct
慾望將蒙蔽你雙眼
I aint origami wont fold I wont bend
結束才是真正的開始
But deaths in depths of my head
我努力提醒你

我不願假裝可以
These desires will blind you
死後我只願安詳長眠
And thats the start of the end
不會遺忘永不遺忘
Im just trying to remind you
過去睡在堆放衣服的地方
I wont take part of pretend
過去睡在雨中頭頂無屋棚

我磕我痛我悔
Ion sleep Ill just rest when Im dead
生活不達標生活一團糟
I dont forgive and I never forget
當你竭盡全力時你還可以給予什麼
Used to sleep where my clothes would be kept
百分之百沒什麼剩下的
Used to sleep in the rain with no roof on my head
還不如把我的心掏出來

讓我自生自滅
Ive got drugs I got pain and regrets
去年我就試了二十次
Lifes got me failin the test
二十個醫生都說我得吃藥
What can you give when youve given your best
二十個醫生攪亂了我思緒
100 percent nothin less
磕下十顆藥丸然後瘋跑的喘不過氣來
Might as well rip my heart outta my chest
看到了光明但沒人幫我沒人引導我
And leave me for dead
我盲目跌跌撞撞地穿過了地獄

重返地球看起來我好像沒事
Last year alone I had 20 attempts
如果要快點死掉就像我一樣
Had 20 doctors say I need the meds
慾望將蒙蔽你雙眼
Had 20 therapists mess with my head
結束才是真正的開始
Popped 10 beans and then ran outta breath
我努力提醒你

我不願假裝可以
Saw the light but had no hand to guide me
I stumbled right through hell blindly
Fell back to earth, but Im fine see
If you wanna die quick then go be just like me, yeah

These desires will blind you
And thats the start of the end
Im just trying to remind you
I wont take part of pretend