I Will Struggle

Im wide awake I know the truth
Some people are poison and Im the proof
I hear the voice inside that says
Everyone is beautiful
But you
One mind any weapon
Im in heaven
My nerves start to deaden
Everything is the same to me
When I let go I become who I might be
Why do I hate what they love
My insecutities and everything Im made of
Im okay with being something Im not
We live
We die
We rot
Every single day
I will struggle
To just be happy again
To feel normal
I know Im in trouble
Is this the way that it feels to be no one
I will struggle
Every day that I survive feels like a miracle
Im in trouble
This is the way that it feels to be no one
I hate myself
I want to die
I cant find meaning in this life
I never asked to be alive
And I dont think I was born to survive
The needle breaks the skin
I feel it sinking in
My god what have I done
My mothers only son
Im far from invincible
And some days I feel invisible
Every single day
I will struggle
To just be happy again
To feel normal
I know Im in trouble
Is this the way that it feels to be no one
I will struggle
Every day that I survive feels like a miracle
Im in trouble
This is the way that it feels to be no one
Life is so hard
But we share the same struggle
They say better a live coward
Than a dead hero
I thought I was chosen
But really I am broken
Im fragile
I could break at any moment
Dont be like me
Dont be like me
If you know there is hope
Set yourself free
If the good die young
Then Ill be around for a lifetime
If the good die young
Then Ill be around for a lifetime
Dont be like me
Dont find comfort in the places I go
Im too scared to look in a mirror
Too afraid to live
But too cowardly to die
Im selfish
Im a liar
Im flawed
I cant control my anger
I cant face my appearance
I cant love the right way
But its time to face the truth
I will struggle every day
For the rest of my life
And Ill always in every way and every day
I will struggle
And Ill always in every way and every day
I will struggle
And Ill always in every way and every day
I will struggle
And Ill always in every way and every day
I will struggle