I hate

Always workin and I never kick my feet up
50 million views and haters try to act
Like they aint seen em
But Im grindin till I headline
And Ima sell out areans
Im not stoppin till I meet Drake
And I get placed on a feature
How could you ball
If youre always sittin on the bleachers
Wake up, write, record, sleep
That is the procedure
Theres too many followers
And theres not enough leaders
Said theres too much followers
And theres not enough leaders
Girls are tryna **** me now
Cause they thinkin that Im on
But if my buzz diminished then
I know shell be gone
I be rappin bout my ex
Now she thinkin she the one
Who can heal my broken heart
But oh girl youre hella wrong, yeah
Im in a weird place
But Im stayin strong
Because the road ahead of me
Lookin hella long
Everytime Im in the room
I feel like I dont belong
I was feelin insecure
Right after I wrote this song
Cause I hate I dont love myself
I hate that I want you so bad
I hate that I gotta be everything
That everybody says that I cant
And if you were inside my head
Then youd understand what I go through
Imagine everybody
Knowing who you are
But nobody out there
Really knows you
Lately I feel like
The worlds tryna test me
Lately it feels like my ex
Tryna stress me
Why does it feel like
Everyones against me
Why does it feel like
Theyre just tryna end me
So many reasons to smile
So why cant I do it
They say its in my mind
Then why cant I get through it
I heard that they criticise
So now I question music
And one day I feel alive
The next Im feeling useless
Im only human
If Im so handsome
Why am I feeling self-conscious
If I know I cant change
Why do I make the promise
If I am so popular
Then why am I in my apartment
Alone
If Im so real
Then let me just be honest
Cause I hate I dont love myself
I hate that I want you so bad
I hate that I gotta be everything
That everybody says that I cant
And if you were inside my head
Then youd understand what I go through
Imagine everybody
Knowing who you are
But nobody out there
Really knows you