Time

April 27th, 2019
2019.4.27.
I hope you hear, I hope this reaches you, uh
我希望你能聽到這首歌，我希望我的聲音能傳到彼岸
All the money in the world, I cant find where they selling time
用這世上所有金錢也買不到時間
One button, that rewind, I'm just taking sip of this wine, let me catch you up
讓時光迴轉的唯一辦法便是把自己灌醉，讓我再見你一次
Its been some time, lets me catch you up
已經一段時間沒見了，我想跟你講講最近的事
Yeah, uh, uh

I don't know where to start
不知從何說起
But something told me, write this down and just speak from the heart
但我覺得我應該將真心話寫下來
Its been fourteen years since I found you all alone in the dark
從我發現你在黑暗中獨自逝去已經過去十四年
But losing you, brought us together when it couldve tore us apart
但我並沒有忘掉你，反而將你銘記在心
Mom still aint good, she misses you, shе think bout you daily
媽媽狀況還是很糟，她很想你，日思夜想
We got a dog after you passed and shе nicknamed her Missy
我們後來養了一條狗，給它起了你的名字
She lives alone out in New Orleans, she always tells me she miss me
她現在在新奧爾良獨居，總是打電話給我傾訴思念
But such as life, this storys real, its not a movie by Disney
正如生活一般，這個故事如此真實，不是迪士尼的童話片
Shell probably tell you I wrote a song and put your story inside it, ****
媽媽大概也會告訴你我寫了一首歌來懷念你
I forgot to tell you, I'm a heck a famous rapper now
忘了告訴你，我現在是個說唱巨星了
Tryna rep [?], I made all of my dreams come true
簽了廠牌，所有夢想早已實現
I toured the world, made platinums albums and I still stayed true
完成世界巡演，做出白金唱片但我依然保持自我
It's so much to catch up on now as I think out loud
世事無常，太多的變化令人難以承受
When you passed, I was ****in up, still I was a problem child
當你離去，我自暴自棄，如今依然滿身惡習
But we had promises to each other, yeah, [?] our vow
但我們有過承諾，我發誓我會做到
I went to college, I graduated, I would've made you proud
我讀完了大學，我想要令你驕傲
Im bout to turn thirty, James is bout to turn twenty-seven
我很快要到而立之年，James也即將二十七歲
He's finding himself still, but I know hell find out in a second
他仍在尋找自我，但我相信那不會太久
He graduated from the same school that I went to in NOLA
他和我在同一所大學畢業
He lives right up the street from moms, its crazy as hes gotten older
他住的離媽媽不遠，看他一路長大真的非常奇妙
Hes mature beyond his years, hes the best I guy I know
少年老成，他是我所知道的最好的男人
I find the older I get, its like the less that I know
年齡增長，愈發感受到自己的無知
This worlds confusing, sometimes I feel all depressed, filled with gloom
世界對我表示質疑，有時我內心滿是絕望，鬱鬱寡歡
The more and more I understand why you had to hide in that room, ****
我逐漸明白當時你為何將自己鎖在房間裡
Its been some time since I had someone I could tell this shit
已經太久沒能和人傾訴
Celebrity life is full of everyone expecting shit
成名的生活便是擁有他們夢想的一切
In 2019, life is crazy, and its evident, wait
2019年，生活是場顯而易見的鬧劇
You wont believe this part but Trump was the president
川普都能成為總統，你敢相信？

And Leo finally got his Oscar after all
小李子也終於成為奧斯卡影帝
And the Warriors were finally the best team in basketball
勇士隊也成為了最強的隊伍
Anyways thats all for now, Ill keep it short and sweet
最近發生了太多事，我盡量長話短說
Ill save the rest until the next time we meet (I miss you, God bless you)
剩下的事就等我下次來時再告訴你吧

I found peace
我得到了寧靜
Hope this moments brief
可惜時光飛逝
Shaded memories
被掩蓋的回憶
I can hardly speak
讓人欲言又止
I found peace (In our/all dreams)
我得到了寧靜
I just grin my teeth
笑對生活
Through teary eyes I see
風雨過後
Smiling back at me
便是彩虹
I found peace
我得到了寧靜

Yeah, uh
Been seven months since you left
你走後已經過去七個月
Some nights it hits me harder than others, thats when I get depressed
這消息令我大受打擊，令我心碎欲裂
I play your shit, but I had to stop reading old texts
我還在放你的歌，我依然沉浸在往事中
I shed tears sometimes still, **** it, Ive been a mess
我時而仍會以淚洗面，該死，我一蹶不振
Knowing myself, I was too proud to ever tell this to you
我知道自己太過自大，不曾對你說過心裡話
But since you popped out first, I used to be a lil jealous of you
但當你比我先成名，我心裡有些不是滋味
I used to hate sometimes, Jameel said thats my [?] you
我甚至有些討厭你，Jameel告訴我：“你這樣不對”
But I was broke and unsuccessful, what you expect me to do?
但我身無分文又默默無聞，我又能怎麼辦呢
See as to why it was rap that felt like they would always compare us
同樣身為白人rapper，總是被大眾比較
Except you sell out shows across the world from [?] to Paris
只不過你早已登上頂峰，名揚四海
And I was still at my moms crib, that means I live with my parents
而我還住在媽媽的房子裡，像個啃老族
I couldnt sell shit out in my town, I was slightly embarrassed
就連鎮上的人都不願聽我的歌，地位尷尬
Fast forward some years, I finally caught up a bit
時間快進幾年，我終於有些起色
I always wonder bout that time, like if you ****ed with my shit
我總是回想起那個時候，你給了我鼓勵
And then we finally met in Europe, playing festivals, shows
我們終於在歐洲相會，在音樂節表演
You watch my set sidestage, Im tryna flex at them shows
你在後台看我的表演，我在台上賣力演出
Until I went and watched yours , your burnt that shit down
直到我看了你的表演，你讓全場躁動
We talked shit and caught afterwards, you ****ed with my sound
結束後我們一起聊天，表達對彼此的欣賞
We clicked, immediately, time passed in a blink
我們感到彼此間的緣分，感情持續了多年
Talking shit, I cant believe that was the first time we linked
談天說地，感覺我們像失散多年的兄弟
What I was going through with Ash, you went through with Ariana
後來我們也找到了彼此的伴侶
And you would check in on me daily, help me deal that drama
你常常關照我，幫我應對問題
Come to think of it, we talked like every day last summer
回想起來，上個夏季我們每天都有說不完的話
You were like a big brother, crazy that you was younger
你明明比我年輕，但待我卻如兄長

Its, only a dream until it happens to you
在一切發生前你都無法相信
But no one ever told me these things would be happening too, ****
但從來沒人告訴我世事無常
Anyways thats all for now, Ill keep it short and sweet
最近發生了太多事，我盡量長話短說
Ill save the rest until the next time we meet (I miss you, Mac)
剩下的事就等我下次來時再告訴你吧

I found peace
我得到了寧靜
Hope this moments brief
可惜時光飛逝
Shaded memories
被掩蓋的回憶
I can hardly speak
讓人欲言又止
I found peace (In our/all dreams)
我得到了寧靜
I just grin my teeth
笑對生活
Through teary eyes I see
風雨過後
Smiling back at me
便是彩虹
I found peace
我得到了寧靜

All the money in the world, I cant find where they selling time
用這世上所有金錢也買不到時間
One button, that rewind, Im just taking sip of this wine, let me catch you up
讓時光迴轉的唯一辦法便是把自己灌醉，讓我再見你一次
Its been a while, lets me catch you up
已經一段時間沒見了，我想跟你講講最近的事
Yeah, uh, uh
(Scoop Dezel)