My Life Before My Eyes

I lie here waiting for one of my sons to walk right through my door
我躺在這裡等待著，我的孩子們能走進我房間的門
But no one's coming Cause everyone I've loved is lost I'm on my own
但是沒有人會來，因為我所愛的人都失去了，我只能靠自己了
My greatest fear is here And I don't want to die alone
我最大的恐懼就在這裡，我不想孤獨地死去
I want my family
我想要回我的家人
They always said they needed me But I need them more
他們總是說他們需要我，但其實我更需要他們
It's getting hard to breathe
呼吸變得越來越困難
And I feel the cold
我感覺到刺骨的寒冷
And it's taking over
然而它正在掌控著我
I see my friends and family
我看到了我的朋友和家人
And my boys are by my side
我的孩子們都在我身邊
Before it all went wrong
在一切都出問題之前
Before the both of them had died
在他們兩個都逝去之前
And I will try Just to go back to a time when I knew I had it all
我會努力回到我知道我還擁有一切的時候
I'd give anything to have them here beside me
我願意付出一切來讓他們回到我身邊
But that'll never be I'm all alone
但那永遠不會是我孤身一人了
Dear god how did this happen to me?
親愛的上帝，這是怎麼發生在我身上的？
You left me with no purpose and left them both to bleed
你讓我毫無方向，讓他們都流血受傷
They killed my boy at home and the other overseas
他們在國內殺了我的兒子，在海外又殺害了另一個
So now I'm left to rot alone and die in this hospital
所以現在我只能孤獨地腐爛死在醫院裡
If they could both just be here now
如果他們現在都能在這裡
I'd let them know before I go I was so damn proud
在我離開之前，我會讓他們知道我是如此的驕傲
But they are never coming home
但他們再也不會回家了
So now I'm left to rot alone and die in this hospital
所以現在我只能孤獨地腐爛死在醫院裡
Give it up surrender Let it all subside there's no one by your side
放棄吧，投降吧，讓一切都平息吧，沒有人會在你身邊了
You'll never, you'll never win this battle within
你永遠不會，你永遠不會贏得這場戰鬥
Your time has come, your body's going numb now give in
你的時辰到了，你的身體已經麻木了，現在屈服吧
I see my friends and family
我看到了我的朋友和家人
And my boys are by my side
我的孩子們都在我身邊
Before it all went wrong
在一切都出問題之前
Before the both of them had died
在他們兩個都逝去之前
And I will try Just to go back to a time when I knew I had it all
我會努力回到我知道我還擁有一切的時候
I'd give anything to have them here beside me
我願意付出一切來讓他們回到我身邊
But that' ll never be I'm all alone
但那永遠不會是我孤身一人了
My skin goes cold as I'm barely breathing
我的皮膚已經冰冷，因為我幾乎無法呼吸
My body's done I've lost all control
我的身體已經完了，我已經完全失控
I want my sons right here beside me
我希望我的孩子們都在我身邊
But now they're both gone, and I don't want to die alone
但現在他們都離開了人世，我不想孤獨地死去
I'm starting to feel my vitals failing
我開始感覺到我的生命體徵正在衰退
I'm drifting away to the dark unknown
我正漂向到未知的黑暗中
Death sinks in as it overcomes me
當死亡降臨在我身上時，它深深地浸入了我的腦海
My greatest fear is here I don't want to die alone
我最大的恐懼就在這裡，我不想孤獨地死去
As the last beat of my old heart subsides
當我那顆衰老的心臟最後一次跳動平息下來
The doctors call the time, it looks like I've died alone
醫生說時辰已到，看來我還是孤身一人的死去了