My Life Before My Eyes

I lie here waiting for one of my sons to walk right through my door
我躺在这里等待着，我的孩子们能走进我房间的门
But no one’s coming Cause everyone I’ve loved is lost I’m on my own
但是没有人会来，因为我所爱的人都失去了，我只能靠自己了
My greatest fear is here And I don’t want to die alone
我最大的恐惧就在这里，我不想孤独地死去
I want my family
我想要回我的家人
They always said they needed me But I need them more
他们总是说他们需要我，但其实我更需要他们
It’s getting hard to breathe
呼吸变得越来越困难
And I feel the cold
我感觉到刺骨的寒冷
And it’s taking over
然而它正在掌控着我
I see my friends and family
我看到了我的朋友和家人
And my boys are by my side
我的孩子们都在我身边
Before it all went wrong
在一切都出问题之前
Before the both of them had died
在他们两个都逝去之前
And I will try Just to go back to a time when I knew I had it all
我会努力回到我知道我还拥有一切的时候
I’d give anything to have them here beside me
我愿意付出一切来让他们回到我身边
But that’ll never be I’m all alone
但那永远不会是我孤身一人了
Dear god how did this happen to me?
亲爱的上帝，这是怎么发生在我身上的？
You left me with no purpose and left them both to bleed
你让我毫无方向，让他们都流血受伤
They killed my boy at home and the other overseas
他们在国内杀了我的儿子，在海外又杀害了另一个
So now I’m left to rot alone and die in this hospital
所以现在我只能孤独地腐烂死在医院里
If they could both just be here now
如果他们现在都能在这里
I’d let them know before I go I was so damn proud
在我离开之前，我会让他们知道我是如此的骄傲
But they are never coming home
但他们再也不会回家了
So now I’m left to rot alone and die in this hospital
所以现在我只能孤独地腐烂死在医院里
Give it up surrender Let it all subside there’s no one by your side
放弃吧，投降吧，让一切都平息吧，没有人会在你身边了
You’ll never, you’ll never win this battle within
你永远不会，你永远不会赢得这场战斗
Your time has come, your body’s going numb now give in
你的时辰到了，你的身体已经麻木了，现在屈服吧
I see my friends and family
我看到了我的朋友和家人
And my boys are by my side
我的孩子们都在我身边
Before it all went wrong
在一切都出问题之前
Before the both of them had died
在他们两个都逝去之前
And I will try Just to go back to a time when I knew I had it all
我会努力回到我知道我还拥有一切的时候
I’d give anything to have them here beside me
我愿意付出一切来让他们回到我身边
But that’ll never be I’m all alone
但那永远不会是我孤身一人了
My skin goes cold as I’m barely breathing
我的皮肤已经冰冷，因为我几乎无法呼吸
My body’s done I’ve lost all control
我的身体已经完了，我已经完全失控
I want my sons right here beside me
我希望我的孩子们都在我身边
But now they’re both gone, and I don’t want to die alone
但现在他们都离开了人世，我不想孤独地死去
I’m starting to feel my vitals failing
我开始感觉到我的生命体征正在衰退
I’m drifting away to the dark unknown
我正漂向到未知的黑暗中
Death sinks in as it overcomes me
当死亡降临在我身上时，它深深地浸入了我的脑海
My greatest fear is here I don’t want to die alone
我最大的恐惧就在这里，我不想孤独地死去
As the last beat of my old heart subsides
当我那颗衰老的心脏最后一次跳动平息下来
The doctors call the time, it looks like I’ve died alone
医生说时辰已到，看来我还是孤身一人的死去了